I had a kid recently, and I realized that I m not a very mentally strong/resilient person. I mean, in some ways I am and have built up a life I love, but I want to do more and be more, and know that I lack discipline.Having a kid is extremely difficult, and so mentally taxing, so I find myself inadvertently shying away from some of the work and lean more and more on my wife/in-laws. I am nowhere near absent, but I find myself to be a complainer when it comes to this stuff and feel that I shouldn t be this way. I need to be stronger.I ve always wanted to build a company/be a founder. I know I would be happier because I do my best work when I m working on my own projects. I have very big dreams, and yet I always lean towards the easy path in the evenings after my 9-5 of slipping back to cooking, watching TV and telling myself tomorrow will be a new day.I ve been doing this for a decade now and I ve gotten nowhere aside from a fairly decent career. I really want to blow myself up, in a way. I know where I m mentally weak, but I don t know where to begin. I m sure a lot of the answer revolves around small steps, but another part of me wonders whether it s even possible, because I ve spent the best part of my life leaning towards the generally easy way out of most of what I do and following the dopamine driven lifestyle. The muscle memory is so strong.