Surrender as a non-stupid life strategy - by Sasha Chapin
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Surrender as a non-stupid life strategy<br>...
Sasha Chapin<br>Jun 23, 2026
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After getting everything I wanted in my 20s, and discovering that I was still miserable, I decided that I should no longer be in charge of choosing what I want, and I slowly settled into a frame of, “I’ll do whatever God seems to want from me.”<br>Some years after making that decision, I’m much happier. My life is richer, and I’m doing more for others. Regularly, I react with positive disbelief when I look at what my life has become. It looks like I’ve been executing a genius strategy. But in reality, I am living in a state of ongoing confusion, just seeing what happens.<br>If you’ve achieved a bunch of your goals, and you’re still not happy with your life, consider giving up on self-chosen plans. Instead, listen to your life, inner and outer, and see if you can feel a current. Then fall into it, especially if it has nothing to do with the story you had about where you were supposed to be going.<br>This choice is known as surrender. As with most cliches, I don’t think I can explain the profound experiential content of surrender—what it feels like, why it works. But perhaps I can lay out a constellation of propositions1 that will, together, illuminate a worldview very different from the one I once inhabited.<br>Knowing and not-knowing yourself
1.1 The planning part of your mind, the one that generates ambitions and hypothetical situations, is a small part of your overall intelligence. Anyone who is halfway good at sex, comedy, or any creative art will know this. Designing your life based on what that part of your mind wants is like designing your house to fit the needs of your right hand. Congratulations, your house is filled with fidget spinners and soap.<br>1.2 A large percentage of human suffering is anticipatory tension, or dreading a future experience such that you actualize its potential suffering in the now. Anticipatory tension is using the illusion of knowledge to generate the illusion of control. Much of what people call planning is this.<br>1.3 My best outfits are all selected by someone else. When I’m at a clothing store, and I meet an employee who seems engaged, I tell them to dress me for maximum attractiveness. They do a much better job than I do. Of course: I can’t see myself as well as someone else can. This is why I try to listen to what the world apparently wants to do with me, rather than who I imagine I am.<br>1.4 Often, our self-image is a defense against the traits we reject in ourselves. “I love to be spontaneous,” says the most calculating person you’ve ever met. Thus, if you’re trying to live in self-loathing and denial, one way is to sculpt your life around the self-image you’ve decided on.<br>1.5 I’ve discovered that scrutinizing my motives too closely is a great way to stop creating. The unexamined life may not be worth living, but the fully examined life is a pinned butterfly in a glass case. I’ve concluded that my life is a grand artistic project, but I’m best off not knowing what it is.<br>1.6 You know that person who had important ripple effects in your life, based on a brief meeting or a kind gesture they extended to you, which meant nothing to them, but everything to you? Or that interesting stranger whose manner cast a brief spell on you, lingering in your memory disproportionately? That’s you also, you’re that person. Most of your impact on others, you will never fully apprehend or appreciate. Thus, it’s not important to know what you’re doing.<br>1.7 The proper end of introspection is not being filled with facts about oneself. Your introspection is successful if it is finite, if it leads you towards direct contact with experience. Get out of the way of your becoming.<br>Choice and authenticity
2.1 People feel most themselves when they are unselfconscious, which is to say, their actions emerge without apparent control. Think of the phrase “singing with abandon.” In our most profound moments of intimacy, we have abandoned the wheel. Who is driving, at that moment? What if we simply let that driver have the wheel more often? It takes practice to notice when that’s the person taking over the wheel—as opposed to our reactive, fear-based conditioning, which is also eager to take the job. Surrender is a skill.<br>2.2 When people talk about “being authentic,” they are often referring to executing some program, some persona, that they’ve devised privately. Of course, our impression of such people is that they’re unnatural and unoriginal. They assign us the job of reinforcing a character we never agreed on.<br>2.3 Surrender is something that happens through you, not something chosen2. I couldn’t have skipped the part of my life when I was contriving everything. And the way I’m living now wouldn’t work without the skills I accumulated during that period of contrivance. If you’re reading this and thinking, “gosh, I wish person...